My first Mother's Day!

Before I was a Mom
I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a Mom
I was rarely puked on
Pooped on
Spit on
Chewed on or
Peed on. (Now it is a daily occurence.)

Before I was a Mom
I had complete control of:
My thoughts
My body
And my mind.
I slept all night. (well, most of the time)


Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
When I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never knew that something so small
Could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew how much I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
Could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay
I had never known the warmth
The joy
The love
The heartache
The wonder
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I met you.



My sweet Charlotte,
The last 4 months of my life have been such a joy. You are truly a dream come true. I just cannot thank God enough for my sweet baby girl. I love you so much.
Love,
Mama